Miscarriage

 Remember when i told u guys i had been thru ups and down lately. When of it got pregnant n got bleeding at the same time n when my sis whom happened to be my forever Obgyn Doc told me that my pregnancy progress is showing not a good progress. From there, i have to redha with everything that Lord send me. 

At 12 weeks 1 day, i lost him. Tipulah kalau kata tak sedihkan. I did all that I could to keep him in my womb but indeed Allah is the best planner. Maybe I’m not that ready to have a new baby yet. 

Alhamdulillah, i have a great moments with my 12 weeks n 1 day pregnancy. Not even once i vomit like his sisters.  Good boy… good boy. How do i know the baby is boy? I’ m pretty sure he is boy if according to the ovulation day cycle. 

It’s okay my baby boy Amir Jr. Please wait for mama, papa n kakaks dekat pintu syurga ya. We love you dearly. Kakak Adriana menangis sungguh2 tak percaya adik dah takdak. While kakak Aishah sedih n terdiam when i told her we lost the baby. Aishah is the type of person yang ssh nak nampak emotion dia. Dia tak menangis pun masa kami pi umrah dulu but i know deep down when i on the phone with her she tried not to feel sad🥲. 

Truth is seronok bila dah lama tak mengandung and tiba2 mengandung orang treat mcm queen. Now i’ m gonna miss that part.

Rindu pulak 🥲